Cash takes on the Grand Canyon with Andrew

So, our adventure seeking son went down the Grand with our friend andrew Schmidt.Like Father like son. Rock on boys!!!!!

cash's mommy

my super heros

Made it thru, made it thru Father's Day. made it thru our first time apart since Cash's passed on to Angel ville. page is heading home right now after a River Trip. Can we all say a big" AMEN' that he got back on the river. I think his soul needed it so badly. Just got in from running my longest solo run since forever-felt great. I am hoping it's going to rain now and get everything soaked. We need it badly.
You know, Cash just hangs out with me all the time and I trust that anyone reading won't think I am nuts, because he just is there/here. he visits, makes me laugh, tells me to do fun things, let's me not be afraid. I really hope that someday my story/our story will be helpful to someone else...and then i pray that no one ever needs to hear my story that SMA won't take anymore babies from their Moms and Dads. cash has plans for us. I dreamt of him 2 nights ago but it was in the future. He was a newborn, about 8 weeks old, and strong. he could hold his head up. and his body was strong. at the time I didn't recognize him because I was so amazed that he has such strength and then I realised that it was Cashie. and he was blond and super healthy and STRONG.
So I know he's on his way back to me. back to all of us. Cash is just doing his Angel job right now, watching over marne's Dad and keeping all those boaters safe.
I love you my super hero.
Cash's Mommy

Father's Day

So it's Father's Day today. Though we survived it last year it feels like this is one of the last big holidays we need to make it through in this first year since Cash's passing. All week, I've been feeling incredibly grateful that I'm Cash's father. I've seen foxes and different signs that Cash truly is zipping around watching over me. I can't wait for him to come back to me. I need him. I need him, I need him. I know I'm a dad, but I just want to change some diapers, and snuggle, and play, and read stories. I love you Cashie, and I hope that when you come back you're ready for all the super fun things we're gonna do.

Happy Father's Day everyone and thanks to everyone who has called and lent some support. I truly appreciate it.