Concert For Cash 2011

WHAT:4th Annual Concert For Cash with The Hollyfelds and Hillbilly Inferno
WHEN: Saturday, January 22, 2011
WHERE: The Oriental Theater (
4334 West 44th Ave, Denver, CO 80212
WHO: The Hollyfelds with Hillbilly Inferno
WHY: To raise money for programs at The Children’s Hospital
: $35.00 VIP Patron Party / $20.00 General Admission(doors open GA at 7:15 pm),

available by calling 303-550-4310,

at the door

or online at

Or purchase directly online at:

Thursday, May 31, 2007

scared to head home

hi all, we are attempting to start our journey back to Denver. I am scared to go home to a quiet house........we talk of having more babies and know there is work to be done to get there:physically, spiritually and emotionally. Meeting with Eeve B crowe in Fairfax , CA was enlightning and so helpful to see where we have to go in order to have more kids.
The deer was back last night at our campspot in the Monterey area as we pulled in to go to sleep.There is no doubt that Cash is al around us.
keep calling, emailing, posting..
xoxo, cash'smommy

Wednesday, May 30, 2007

Monterrey . . . . .

Hey, just an addition to the post Teri just made. The van has been a great place for us. It has offered us security, mobility, and a place to be with the little man. We can't even describe how much we miss him, . . . . , but like Teri just said he is all over the place giving us a smile and the stregnth to keep on. He doesn't want us to wallow in sorrow, he wants us to get rid of the sorrow, get rid of the emotional scars we carry around, and be grateful and celebrate what we have. It's becoming one of our mantra's, be grateful. So we are. Even the smallest of signs reminds us of what we need to be doing.

I wish our camera hadn't broken yesterday. You we would share with you pictures of our gleaming eyes, not the glazed over ones you saw when we left. I have shaved my beard, and though it is hard for us to smile, when we do it's awesome.

Can't wait to see you all when we return home. Thanks for all of your love and support.

Page, Teri, Spider, and Cash

Monterey and Big Sur

Hi all, We have travelled south of the Bay Area to follow the coast line and get more beach walks. Spending some hours in the Monterey Aquarium this morning was good and fun and then got hard as swarms of children and parents overtook the building.

We are both missing Cash today. A baby deer was right outside our van this AM when we woke up. It hung out for quite a while as we talked to him and Spider wiggled about. We have seen many Sea Otters and a few Seals.......a very amazing yet sleepy town this time of year.
Cash seems to be with us all the time as we travel along, showing us fun and interesting things along our way.

We are thinking about heading home tommorrow, with a stop over in Yosemite. We are both eager to start back to our lives outside the van and back to Cowie and get our new puppy Stripe.

We know that life will be very different when we return and I am nervous about that. We both know that Cash will come back to us and I trust that when the time is right he'll show up. I look forward to that so much. He was here for such a short time but has taught us so many lessons already. I think that was one of his purposes. another was to open our hearts up so much in order to love unconditionally.Smart kid.
xoxox, cash's mommy

Memorial Day Run

Holly and I ran the Bolder Boulder Memorial Day race in honor of Cash. The Team Cash shirts were definitely an eye catcher during the race and we even had a few people ask about it. Drive safe and it will be good to see you again when you get back.
Luke and Holly

Tuesday, May 29, 2007

beach bound

hi guys - i hope the beach welcomes you ALL with nice weather so that the sun can kiss your heads and the waves can envelop some of your sorrow... thinking of you often! love stacy

Monday, May 28, 2007

Cash Memorial Service Update

As we have been driving,crying, walking,talking we have decided to not have a memorial service for Cash right now and possibly never a public memorial. When and if we do decide to do something we will provide everyone with ample time to make arrangements.

If you feel the need to be with us and celebrate Cash, please invite us to a baseball game, concert, bbq, river trip, ski day......whatever event that you think we can share with you in celebration.

In the meantime, the T-Shirts are meant to be used as an avenue to celebrate Cash. We have had great reports of celebrations happening all over the place. He wants us all to celebrate him, in whatever form that means to you. Please send us your photos so that we can compile them together.

We have also had inquiries about a memorial fund. Our intention is to have funds go towards the Cash Scanlon Phillips Memorial Garden at the new Childrens hospital. We haven't established the fund yet, but once we are home we will send out a message with details. Thanks for your patience with this.

Love to all of you, Cash's Daddy and Mommy

Headin' South

After several wonderful days here in San Francisco we are going to pull up and head south. We aren't sure where we will end up but the ocean is healing place for us for at least today and perhaps the next few. Moneterrey . . . Big Sur, we just aren't sure where we will end up, but no doubt it will be someplace where we are meant to be, just like the last few. A huge thanks and hug to Tom, Terrel, Evan, and Miran. It's been wonderful spending some healing time with you and thanks for giving us the space we have needed. We are leaving you stronger and with the notion that we are going to carry a blessed attitude about Cash instead of wallowing in sadness. Afterall, he is a gift and doesn't want us to feel sad.

So with that we head on and continue the healing.

For those of you that are interested, Spider the fuzzy Malamute has now been to both the Pacific and Atlantic Oceans. He loves the sand and waves, very little wading for him, as much as his mom and dad.

Please keep calling and writing, it helps a ton.

All our love,

Page, Teri, Spider, and of course Cash

San Francicso

Hi all, We have arrived in the Bay Area to the open arms of Evan, Miran, Tom and Terrell . With what seemes to be a trend now we struggle with transistion but these wonderful friends seemed to intuitively see that and guided us to a very safe landing here in San Fran. We have been hiking, talking, eating, playing with Spider and crying about the loss of Cash. And then things come over me : like again how lucky I am to have been his Mommy here on earth, and how lucky we are to have each other and such great friends. Page and I saw a Shaman yesturday to do a Soul Retieval. It was a powerful experience for each one of us, for us as parents for us a individuals and for us as a couple. It helps me to have hope for our future...that we will be ok, and as we continue to wade thru all the grief and saddness we are amazed at the little miracles and lessons Cash is already teaching us about. I knew my kid was smart!!!!!
We miss you all and please keep blogging, checking in with us, and calling...
xoxo, cash's mommy

Saturday, May 26, 2007

Lake Tahoe Landin

Hi all from Incline Village ,

The poker game has blown us away with tears, amazement, and overwhelming gratitude for all you friends in Denver. A wonderful way to kick off the next leg of our journey to San Fran.

We landed after a long drive across Nevada last night at Mike and Melissa's home here. Mike so graciously opened his arms to catch us...............and I have to say we both woke up feeling a bit better , not so in the quicksand..........we are heading to the Bay Area in a little meet up with Evan , Miran, Tom and Terrell...and cousin Bobbi if you are reading this please call us....I don't have your # with me......
We are continuing along our path, have started reading a bit about grief...todays meditation said something about -how much we loved Cash as a gift, like to bright green side of a leaf, but that right now it may feel painful and not so glossy like the dul underside of that leaf but soon or in time the shiny green side will be out and we will both remember with gratitude how much we do love him and how lucky we are to feel so deeply. Some folks never get that chance. So for today, I will be trying see the green side of the leaf.

love you all, keep blogging and calling, contact is VERY helpful..
Cash's mommy

Hold 'Em For CASH

Page and Teri -

Last night (Friday May 25th) the first annual 'Hold Em For Cash' celebrity poker tournament was held in honor of the little man, Cash Scanlon Phillips, that touched so many of our lives in so many ways. 19 players and another dozen or so observers gathered together and raised over $1,100 for you to use in whatever way you see fit to honor the legacy of Cash. Be it seed money for the Cash Scanlon Phillips Memorial Garden, a donation to the good folks at Childerens Hospital, or a memorial fund in Cash's name, we all just really wanted you to know that as you continue on your journey of healing and remembrance, both literally and figuratively, we are here for you, we are thinking of you, we miss you and we love you!

Friday, May 25, 2007

Please have a safe journey and if you get a chance visit Emerald Bay in South Lake Tahoe. It is so beautiful and Serene. I hope that if you are able to go there it will bring your hearts a moment of peace.
I am thinking of you both every moment and sending up good thoughts and prayers for you.
Love Ya both,

Thinking of you

Tess and Cash and Catie and I were on our first Mountain Mamas hike on Mt. Falcon together just a few months ago. It was great to be outside with our little ones and to talk to another mom who was loving every sleepless minute (Catie and Cash both came early and within a few days of each other).

I know Cash will forever be in your hearts, and I am happy for you that you were able to share this time with him. He has reminded us all to be thankful for our loved ones; please, PLEASE let me know if there is anything at all that we can do to help (food, hikes, donations, even weeding the memorial garden), we would be honored.

Safe travels, I hope that it helps you both begin to heal. All of Team Cash are in our thoughts and prayers.

- Liz
I am so sorry Tess. I just read today, I am so sad. I understand your road trip, it's perfect. We love you and are sending healing, loving thoughts from Colorado and from Mountain Mamas. Please blog when you get back, we want to help, with food, or ANYTHING. We are all so sad and will hug our little ones closer on each and every hike while thinking and remembering Cash.

Love Sonja

Moving on . . . .

We are heading towards California today. We have had an incredible loving time with Betsy, Bill, Sara, Sky, and Zachary so now it’s time to move forward and continue with this process. We are feeling stronger and now that we have a destination in our minds it is going to be much easier to move down the road and continue our healing.
Betsy, Bill, Sara, Sky, and Zachary have all been wonderful hosts to us. We can’t thank them enough for their open and loving arms. They have provided a safe haven for us to express our pain, sleep, walk, talk, cry, run, hike, and get the feeling that we do have a future and can move forward. Again, we are with wonderful people whose spirits are fantastic. Thank you from the bottom of our hearts.

We will be in Incline Village tonight and then tomorrow it’s on towards the Bay area.
Please keep calling or e-mailing or whatever. Every little bit helps.

Our Love to You all,
Teri, Page, Cash, and Spider

Thursday, May 24, 2007

big hugs

Hi Page and Teri,


I saw the “Happy Campers” photo of you two and it made me smile.   Those are the faces that describe you both so perfectly.  In fact, seeing the picture made me really miss hanging out with you guys—BIG time.


It is cool that you are keeping us posted on your travels.  It isn’t always easy to read what you’ve written only because it makes me sad that you are experiencing so much pain and grief.  It must be so difficult to write sometimes, but you both remain resolute—which is so telling of your character and who you are as people.   How I wish that I could give you both big hugs!  


Yesterday, I received the Team Cash T-shirts.  Thank you so much!  That was so kind.  I am devising a plan to honor to Cash.  What that is exactly, I’m not sure yet, but I am eager to do something.  Page, I wish I could have touched base with you before you left.  It was Arne’s birthday, so we went out of town (no email, no phone).  Anyway, it was so awesome to hear your message.  I played it over and over and it totally made me smile through tears.  I really miss our “Grande Americano with Room” coffee chats.


So, in news from NYC…Arne was promoted to a Principal a few weeks ago.  He certainly does put the ‘pal’ in principal, eh?  I’m very proud of him.  We are going to Korea again in July for the final presentation of our project.  I’m looking forward to a Korean spa, authentic Bimibob, and of course, Soju and plenty of karaoke.  As for me, I’ve been workin’ like a d-o-g.   I look forward to having a life again someday.


Safe travels and let the roads take you where they may.   If you decide to pull an about face and head to New England, you’ve got a place to crash!


Many hugs,




Dark days but hope

Hello all,
After a very rough start to the day Page and I pulled out of the dark spot to a better place. I truly believe that Cash would not want us to be so sad...........I know that grieving takes a long time, forever and there will be many ups and downs just feels ok to be in an up for a few moments. We hope to push off from our safe harbour in SLC in the am to travel West to San Fran to land with safe friends and spend the weekend at one of our fave spots North of the City.........with a stop over in Incline Village.

Have spoken to a few other Moms that have also lost's a amazing the similarities with how we all feel. I look forward to the children I pray that we can have in our future. I have to trust that Cash would want that for us. And over and over again I am hearing that Cash chose us. So it's nuts that all we w ant to be are parents and now we Page and Teri again..I Pray that Cash will send kids our way. Please put that in your prayers for us.
And that the dark times are few.
love, cash's mommy

Wednesday, May 23, 2007

And we continue on . . . . .

Well . . . . we're still here in the safe haven of Salt Lake City. Betsy, Bill, and the Boyz have been incredible to us. Food, conversation, hot tubbing, and general distraction have been very helpful. The tough fact remains though that we just won't wake up and everything will be back to the way it was three weeks (or more) ago. We have been contacting lots of folks who have also lost their children and one of the constant themes is that things just won't ever be the same again. Just the thought about your child can bring you right back the moment (diagnosis, time in the hospital room, the moment Cash passed) and it's our job to figure out how to let the emotions do their thing and still feel like we are keeping our heads above water.

We also found out today that the official diagnosis is SMA. It two recessive genes from the both of us to make it happen. Scientifically it's completely out of our hands. Emtionally you wonder why this happened to us. At the same time it's also a gift in a weird way. All I know is that on this day it's hard to see a child in a stroller. My mind instantly goes towards thinking about Cash and then the fact that he's not with us in the sling or the baby bjorn or in his stroller. It's a pretty quick spiral that takes you down. I suppose it will keep happening over and over until we figure out how to deal with it.

We are thinking that tomorrow we will push off and head west again. All bets are off in terms of heading north or south at that point. We are surviving hour to hour and minute to minute. It's great to be together though. We really need each other right now.

Thanks for checking on the house and visiting with Cowie. We so appreciate all of you, and thanks to those of you who have been calling in and leaving messages. Please please please keep them coming.

See you soon!

hello from not so sunny denver

Hey guys,
Wanted to send our love and good vibes to you. We are thinking lots about you and saying a prayer every night at dinner for your strength. XOXO the mcguans

Happy Campers

Thanks for keeping us posted on your adventure. Wish we were on your path, somewhere fabulous. Miss you here in Colorado already!
So much Love,
A+B=C (Alli, Ben and Cullin & Siler too.)
He is such a beautiful little boy.I truly wish I knew the reason that life works like this.
My prayers to all of you.

Tuesday, May 22, 2007

boomerang effect

Hey Cash, this was given to me in a time of need from your amazing dad.  I just thought I'd share it with you, your mom and some of your friends.  Lots of love always, konich

hey hey hey, another rainy day

Hey family Phillips-
Another saoker here in D-town today. no need to worry about the garden or the lawn. Just wanted to let you know we are thinking about you as you travel, remember, heal, cry and adventure with the Cash Man. And don't worry about Cowie, we'll be taking Miles by for him to swat at on a regular basis!
Talk to you soon!

salt lake city

Hello from SLC,
Page, Spider and I just got down from a first w/out Cash on my chest......but he was with us. I am finding that We landed here on Sunday night to the open arms of Betsy, Bill , Sky and Zackie..oh what a wonderful family. They have opened up their home to us and taken care of Page, Spider and I, with yummy meals, walks, maps to wherever we need to go and the openness to let us talk about Cash when we need to and to talk about other things when we can't.
you know, I still don't know why this happened.......why God would give us Cash and took him away......and then I remember that Cash chose page and I to be his parents for a reason, and that he could have chosen not to come at all. I keep hearig stories of Women and men who have lost babies at Childbirth and in utero.and then I think how grateful I am that i got to be super mommy to my little boy cash. living in the good places is way better for me that focussing on the bad
.and how this whole in my heart will ever be filled again. I think it will be there forever......b/c nothing will ever fill the whole...not a van, a puppy, a movie.nothing. I do keep asking Cash to come back to me. Page asked me today "in what form?' I definately vacillate in between reality and not reality. I trust that Page and I will survive this pain.not sure how sometimes...talking about future kids helps. Knowing that I need to grieve in a healthy way also helps me ride the waves of utter devastating sadness that crash over me at night. Besty took me to a Hip Hop dance class last night. I didn't know if I could focus on anything for 60 mins. But it really helped to get into my body and dance. Hiking helps all the Mountain Mamas out there please hugs your babies tight on your hikes. I think Cash will forever be my little hiking he was holding my hand, walking beside me, talking to me the whole way. I loved it.
Please keep calling..303-550-4310 or is really good for us right now. or emailing or blogging.
love, cash's mommy

add to blog please

Dear Teri and Page,
Just checking in to tell you how much I love you both....
My dear friend Danette Turcotte has entered both your names on an international-world wide prayer line to help you through this difficult time....She has included all extended family  too.
I will call you later in the day....

Monday, May 21, 2007

the homestead

hi page and teri and cash and spider (and spike?? - did he go with you?)
i was at your home this eve...cowie is fine...eager for some wet food,
which she got. i gave her some love and some pets and some more love.
i watered all of your gardens. i got the watermelon and the birdhouse
gourds and your new plants in the corner...the pots, the grasses, the catmint,
the hollyhocks, the lupine, the poppies, the blue mist spireas, the blue muffin
viburnums and all of the other beautiful plants! the roses will be so beautiful
when you guys return!
anyway, your home is peaceful and it is an honor to care for your
kitty cat and your garden...

i hope your adventure is helping you heal
and the stars are shining on your path....
much love. marne

Cash Helps the Denver Zoo

Hello to Page, Teri and Cash - We had a wonderful family outing to the Denver zoo on Saturday to honor sweet baby Cash. We love the Team Cash t-shirts and your request to help others, and wanted to do an activity that our kids could help out with. One of our favorite places is the zoo -- and we know how much Cash loved animals. We thought it would make him giggle to help out the animals so that all kids can continue to enjoy them.
We had fun going to the store to pick out items off of the zoo's wish list. Since summer is coming the animals need a wading pool, and if you can believe it, some of them like to take bubble baths! We picked the scents of lavendar and the ocean. They also are in need of sidewalk chalk -- for the monkeys to use and for kids activities. We also learned that one of the things that keeps the animals healthy at the zoo is to have an exciting habitat, and new scents make their surroundings full of excitement. We picked scented oils of melon, cucumber, berries, and pineapple, and we picked spices of Lemon and Vanilla. It made us smile thinking of the animals getting excited for their new scents.
The picture shows our family at the zoo, on our way into make our donation. We had the chance to tell Trish with Guest Relations all about Baby Cash up in heaven. She was thrilled to accept our donation in Cash's memory and told us how much the animals would enjoy everything.
Thanks so much the the t-shirts and the great idea to do something inspiring. It was a wonderful way for us to teach our children about Cash. Allie remembers meeting him at the St. Patrick's Day party. We look forward to celebrating Cash's live with you when you return from your road trip. We're here for the long haul friends. You are in our thoughts, prayers, and hearts daily.
Much Love,
Kate, Ben, Allie, Jake and Meghan

Saturday, May 19, 2007

On our way . . . .

Thanks to some serious help from the Mom's (thank you both so much from the bottom of our hearts) the van is packed and we are ready to shove off. Cash has come back to us, and he too, now surrounded by candles, is ready to help us make the trip. One might think, wow, how incredible a road trip, but the reality isn't quite that rosy. To be completely truthful we are scared. Scared to leave, scared to stay, scared of the dark, scared of the quiet, and scared of just about everything you might imagine. The questions loom heavy . . . what happens to us when there isn't someone to help keep us distracted and not think too much? How will we react to each other? What just happened? How do we keep going?

So this trip is something we really need to do. Bring Cash to the ocean, collect some sand, get our feet wet, celebrate this incredible little guy. Our itinerary continues to change as it should. If we are going to be in your area we will call and let you know as we will need some safe arms in which to land.

In the meantime we absolutely want to thank our mothers who have been wonderful chaperones to us this week and have given us a wealth of support. They are incredible ladies and if you don't know them, we hope you get a chance to sometime.
Thanks to you all for your calls, notes, care packages, coming over to drink beer and cry, prayers, thoughts, and sending us incredible energy. We have and will need your help in the future. Please keep calling and writing and whatever we need you now and in the future. We're not kidding as this pain we feel in our stomach's just isn't going to go away.

We will keep posting on this blog so please keep reading and send us some e-mails for god's sake, we need it.

We will let you know about a memorial service when we get back.

All our love,

Page, Teri, Cash, Spider, and Cowie

Friday, May 18, 2007

left coast lovin

for our little man Cash.  Counting the days to hugging you both.  Dave, Stef and Lach



getting ready to launch

Well, we did it...........with great support from everyone, our VW camper Van is in Edgewater and we are getting ready to take Cash and Spider on the road for a great adventure.We will be posting often , so please keep blogging yourselves.
Also, when we return to Colorado: we are hoping to have a Memorial Celebration for Cash then AND we know that many of you have asked about a Memorial Fund for Cash. We are in the process of researching and setting something up with the great hopes to create a Cash Scanlon Phillips Memorial Garden at the New Children's Hospital here in Denver........of course I need to research how that can happen but I am trusting that where there is a will there is a way to see that to reality. So please, hold your checkbooks for a few more weeks until we can get that together.

We also want to introduce the newest member of the Scanlon Phillips family-STRIPE!! Cash named his puppy while I was reading him "Hope For The Flowers" a few hours before he passed on. So Stripe will be joining Spider and Cowie here on Jay street to make our home noisy again and keep us busy when we return.
Please keep in touch often, we will have our cells and laptop........stay tuned for more updates.
love to all, cash's mommy

fantastic voyage

Dear Page and Teri,


Wishing you both a cathartic and spiritual journey on your road trip.  May your travels take you down some familiar roads and may you embark on new adventures while you begin to heal.  I am excited for you to show Cash the ocean and Disneyland!


Much love as always,

Jennifer Russell

Road Trip

Hey Teri and Page you should bring the Cash Caravan up here to the Pacific NW.  I think a drive up to Paradise on Mt. Rainier would be a great stop, as long as you are heading out this way.  And of course it would be great to see you both.  Just throwing out ideas!  Let me know, I can probably hook you guys up with a nice little cabin right near the park (Sorry Page, the cabin is probably not as nice as the “Base Camp RV” from way back when……..)


And/or if you are planning to hit the Oregon coast, I know a great little town on the beach in Southern Oregon…….just sayin…..



We received our Team Cash T-shirts today. They are so awesome. We can hardly wait to wear them and do something inspiring!
Thanks so much for being so very generous to us all -
Have a wonderful trip and email us lots of photos and blogs
Tricia, Scott and Tyler

Thursday, May 17, 2007

Miles of Smiles

Wishing you the best on your road trip. What a fitting tribute to Cash, the Mother's Day Champ.

Let us know when you reach the coast.

Juliet, Martin & Sam

We carry on . . . .

It's hard to make sense of all of this. We brought Cash to the hospital thinking everything would be fine and he didn't come out with us. It's going to take and long time to come to grips with this but what we are holding on to is that this incredible little guy gave us the stregnth to be good parents for him. It has been and will always be an amazing honor to be his father. It also has been an amazing honor to witness the love and ultimate caring his mom has for him. To think that he gave us the gift of mother's day is beyond words. The reality though is that we was incredibly sick and didn't let anyone know until the very end of his physical life.

So yes, we are incredibly sad, and we miss him every second, and yes when it gets quiet it's scary for us as we think about what has actually happened. Living in this realm of what's beyond comprehension is inexplicable. . . . . But, he is a gift and we choose to exist with him that way. Today and every day he is everywhere. We will be leaving soon to take him on a road trip with him so that we can begin to do everything we have always wanted to do with him.

Please please please keep blogging and contacting us, or doing whatever to keep contact. Come and see us! We are going to need it now and in the future. It has and will help so damn much.

We love you all . . . .

new day

It's a new is everywhere around us now. Thank you everyone who came by the house last night to make us laugh, tell us stories and listen to Page and I brag about how rad Cash is. We are opening up the house agian tonight after 5 pm. came by...bring some beer and the Mom's have snacks to munch on.
We are planning on heading out of town for a 2-3 week road trip in our newVW Camper van. Spider is coming with. If you are in the Montana, Idaho, Oregon, Calf area....we'll be calling you to drop in. We'll be updating the blog all along our travels......and invite anyone to fly in and meet us whereever we are.
Oh, we are heading to Disneyland too.please join us there. Cash is coming on our trip....we are taking him to the ocean.
News of team Cash shits have hit a Rookies game, the Grand Canyon, a yoga is everywhere.
we couldn't do it without all of you. Keep posting........and if posting is complicated remember you just need to get a Google account.then you can post.
xoxo, cash's mommy


Terri and Page:

Just wanted to let you know that I am thinking about you all from Iowa!



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Wednesday, May 16, 2007

Team Cash tee

Dear Teri and Page- I just received my Team Cash tee shirt. I am already wearing it. What a great idea. What a great way to remember Cash. I never got to meet him but this tee shirt will help me to know always what a beautiful little boy he was. Please know that the two of you are in my thoughts and prayers at this difficult time. Love, Aunt Jeanne

Cash is Everywhere

Cash contributed more to this world and our hearts in 4 months than most people do in a lifetime. Wise well beyond his years, He has taught us about what it is to love and the pricelessness of life. He will forever watch over his Mommy and Daddy and take care of them in a way, we here on earth, will never understand. I am filled with joy every day that I read this blog and see how people can come together and give of themselves. Page and Teri need and deserve every brick of support we can offer. It is amazing the impact human sympathy can have. I am heartbroken and in awe of love all at the very same time.

Cash is love. Cash is Class V. Cash is Captain of the Ski Team. Cash is everywhere.
Alli Lawhon (+Ben and Cullin and Siler too)

We love you!!!

Teri....Your dad finally is able to hold his grandson!!! He is in the best arms ever. Heaven is smiling and a better place now that Cash has joined all of our lost loved ones that were needed for a higher purpose. We are here for phone calls, emails, ANYTHING at ANYTIME!!! Love love love to both of you. Abby & Will

Terri and Page...

We are so sorry to hear of your loss of little Cash.
Our whole church has been praying for him...and for you.
And we will continue to pray for you in the coming days and weeks and
You are very special friends!
Please know that if there is anything that we can do, we would be honored
to help you
in any way that we can.

With our love and prayers...
Dave Kummer

Just Heard the News

Page, Terri and all,

I just heard the news. I've been sending you prayers from down here in the Carribean.

Cash's illness and death breaks my heart. The courage, hope and strength expressed in your emails smashes the peices of my heart into smithereens.

Courage and peace to you all,

Annie Pausback
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It is hard to find words that mean much in a time like this. We are thankful for the time you had with Cash and know that his life has touched so many of us in a way that does not happen very often. You have our thoughts and prayers and support in every way.

Luke and Holly

Tuesday, May 15, 2007


hello from home...........a quiet place now.we need a bit of noise, distraction, friendship. we know folks don't know what to do , neither do we but we do know we need to be surrrounded by Page and i continue on this journey of grief together we know we are forever changed. as we move along we will do our best to let you know what we need....for now we do need our friends/families to help us make it thru each, email,stop by.........we do need you now .we will need you all for the long haul.
cash's mommy and daddy
Dear Teri & Page,
I am so deeply sorry for your loss.  I can not image the pain you are feeling right now.  He was such a beautiful little boy!!
You are all in my thoughts and prayers.


Please accept my condolences.
I share your grief.
- mike d.

love from nyc

Dearest Page and Teri,


You are extraordinary parents.  Cash was so fortunate to have you, and likewise, you were blessed to have him.  This little guy has had such a profound and indelible impact on so many of us—even if some of us never had the opportunity to meet him.  He certainly measured up to his name!  It is our hope that you find comfort in the wonderful moments of his life.   The three of you are deep within our hearts. 


With much love,

Jennifer and Arne



Our love is with you all during this time.  Let us know if you need anything.  We are holding healing thoughts in our hearts for all of you.

Love, Jessica, Ian, Ella and Declan

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Tears for Cash

Teri and Page,

Dave and I have been reading your blog and thinking of you often for the past few weeks. We are so sorry that Cash had to leave this earth so soon. Mother nature certainly cried hard for you last night here in Denver and we feel the same way.

Thinking of you,

Alexa and Dave


Dear Teri & Page,


I am devastated to hear about your loss.  Please know that my fiancĂ©, Dan and I are thinking about you.



Amy Narcotta & Dan Grubb




To Cash

Hey Cash,
I know you are in a better place now, that you have been unshackled from the failed, frail husk that made your short life a struggle.  I know you have been given to fly, but still, I am sorry that I did not get a chance to meet you.  Your folks are such great people - among the kindest, most genuine that I have ever known.  With that kind of love and support, I know you would have grown into a special man in your own right.  That is what makes it hard to lose you now.  I know your mom and dad are grateful for the light and joy you brought into their lives.  But we parents can be greedy - Knowing your dad, I am sure he was looking forward to showing you so many of the wonders of this place.  There are rivers to paddle, mountains to climb, amazing sunsets and so much more.  There was a lot to see here and I am sorry we never had the time to share more of it with you.   Thanks for helping to teach and remind us abou t the joy and beauty and love that do exist here amidst the temporary and sometimes difficult lives we lead.  As you may have noticed, some of us can be a little distracted at times.  I know we never met, but you still were able to make an impact on me.  It looks like I am not alone.  Thanks Cash.  God bless and keep you.

To Teri and Page

Hi Teri and Page,
Marty called a week or so ago and told me the news.  Made me appreciate all over again the precious gift of my own daughter.  Like so many who have posted here, I desperately wish that there was more I could do or say, something that might make a difference.  I will continue to keep you two in my thoughts and prayers, as well as your family and friends who are gathering around you.  Be strong.  Be at peace.
Love, Jason Brantley

Cash Man

Rest in Peace little man - Your presence on this earth was larger than life. Your soul has touched so many lives. You will not be forgotten!
paul & marne

cat for cash

anna and i worked on this last night for cash. we are thinking of you both and your families... i expained to anna that cash is now in a place where he is wiggling, giggling and breathing freely... all of our love - stacy and anna

Our son

Cash Scanlon Phillips
January 18th, 2007-May 14th, 2007

What a joy, what a soul, what a little man.

Monday, May 14, 2007

I am so honored to have met you. You are the light of the life of a whole lot of people, especially your mom and dad. Words can't even quite express what you have brought into this world. You are joy and peace and faith all rolled into one tiny little bundle. Obviously you were so anxious for your folks to behold your magic that you came into this world kind of early. But you have brought so much in your time here. I just want to wish you peace. I love you so much and always will.
Love Love Love,
your Auntie Tricia

FW: Hi Page, Teri and Cash

Subject: Hi Page, Teri and Cash

Loved the Mothers day message. You are all WONDERFUL. We sure though of
you as we celebrated M's Day with a float down the South Platte. Not as
urban as one would think.

We are sharing our messages with all our family who are hanging on your
every super word with prayers and thoughts. I loved that you appreciate his
5 extra weeks with out the knowledge. Knowing the future isn't what it was
once cracked up to be.

Happy smiles and lots of prayers

June and Bernie

To Cash from Annie in Puerto Rico

My name is Annie Pausback and I'm a lifelong friend of the Phillips - Lots of river trips together. I'm in Puerto Rico right now for a year working as an Americorp Volunteer in a homeless shelter. My internet access is pretty limited so I'm sending a quick email to you.

Some hard things have happened back home while I've been here but this one brings me to my knees. God bless you all. Thanks for the reports and I will get on the blog as soon as possible. Please tell Page and Terri that I think of them and Cash everyday with tears and many many prayers!!


Happy Mothers Day Teri!!!!

Sending you a big squeeze!!!

Tankie & our niece, Theory (the tiny baby at our wedding)

We miss those beautiful Colorado sunsets & sunrises....share one with Cash if you haven't already had the opportunity

Teri & Page. We are so amazed by your strength and wish we could see the strength you have passed along to Cash in person but the pictures & messages paint an inspirational picture. Happy Mothers Day Teri!! Love your idea making every day a celebration of the gift of motherhood. We love you much & you are in our thoughts daily. Abby & Will

Happy Mothers Day Teri!!!

Sending you a big squeeze!!

Tankie & his niece, Theory

Teri & Page. We are so amazed by your strength and wish we could experience the strength you have passed onto Cash in person but the pictures and messages paint an inspirational picture. Happy Mothers Day Teri. Love your idea of making every day a celebration of the gift of motherhood!!! We miss those Colorado sunsets & sunrises. Make sure to share some with Cash if you have the opportunity. We love you much & you fill our thoughts daily. Abby & Will

Sunday, May 13, 2007

The Man is the Message

Cash , Teri, and Page…


Its so hard to find the words to describe how terrifying yet inspiring your situation is.

When we look at our own kids after this diagnosis we feel lucky, scared, sad, guilty, and many other emotions.

We feel so unsure of how we can even begin to help you with this.


Reading your posts and e-mails helps.  It is clear that Cash is not saddened by this.  He only knows the overwhelming love of mom and dad and all the other friends and family.   And to see you guys  show such fortitude to live for the present and for Cash is inspiring.   It is awesome that his fighting spirit has strengthened you.


He is bigger than his little body.  His spirit is his Legacy and it will live on far longer than all of the rest of us.  He has affected all of us, your friends,  and the ripples will carry on beyond.  The vibration of his spirit is amplified by the love we are all sending and sensing.   Our kids will know the story of Cash and his valiant fight when the time is right


No one gets out of Life alive in the physical…

Wheras in the sprit… there is no death


Jon, Kir, Aldie and Lulu Love you


It was such a pleasure to meet you. You are in our thoughts and prayers.

Evan & Miran

Mother's Day Gratitude

What a happy Mother's Day, my first and I woke up face to face with Cash. I thanked him for being here. I just need to share my gratitude with everyone , because if i don't I get pretty sad and can't focus on what's really good.
My child woke woke up. Cashie has given me so many gifts but most of all he has given me the gift of being his Mom. I know everyone loves their children and think their child is the best but please let me indulge myself in praise for my Little man.this kid is so amazing, he could have chosen not to come at all......and he did....5 weeks early. Cash has given me the gift of being Mommy, going on walks, joining Mountain mamas, going to Mommy Class, showing him off at church, Going to Mommy/baby movies on Tuesday mornings...and so much more...all the smiles are what I cherish most. Cash is a gift.every minute I get to be his Mommy.I know there are people in our world that do not get this oppurtunity to feel what it feels like to have your child smile at you, to hold him, to change his diapers........I am lucky and grateful and full of love for my Child and my husband who are the best gifts I could have ever received. How lucky am I???Everyday is Mother's Day for me. And for that I am so grateful.

Cash's White Mtn Hike

Good morning, with Cash deeply entrenched in our hearts we are taking him for a little hike in the White Mountains near where his mom grew up. If we pick right route we may even be looking over Grandma Sandy's house!


Saturday, May 12, 2007

tulips...and girlfriends

Dear Teri, Page and Cash,
Thinking of you all here...
We love Uncle Brian's song...
I'm wishing I could be one of little Cash's girlfriends too. I wouldn't really know what to do, as I know the other side much better, and I'm sure he is getting perfect loves from everyone there. For that I am so glad. I love the pic of you guys with the tulips. They are JUST coming out here. Not much to say here except you are in our prayers and thoughts all the time. Lots of love, Laura and Doug

Friday, May 11, 2007

a haiku for cash

simple beauty. cash.
love and peace and innocence.
touches my soul. apples.

we love you guys and can't stop being inspired by you.
m & p

a little song for CASH

A little song for Cash  (sung to the tune of the Beverly Hillbillies theme)


Now listen to a story about the Cash baby boy

He came into the world, sure enough to spread his joy

He helps his momma with her flowers all the time

Supports his daddy as he draws up those designs


Cash we say: blue eyes, sparkly soul, love bug….


Then one day Cash was destined for a ride

He rode in a big spaceship to Childrens' 409

He charms all the nurses, docs, social workers, more

He even got to see his dog Spidy at the door


Cash we say: blue eyes, sparkly soul, love bug….


So now Cash is bringing the folks together too

Grammy, Nana, Otta, Sara, Betsy, Joey, Bren, Janer - woooo…..

Tricia , Scott and Tyler , Scott K. as well.----

All these folks love Cash—now that is pretty swell.


Cash we say: blue eyes, sparkly soul, love bug….


Lots of good friends have written blogs for Cash

The support to Page and Teri has helped them not be so sad.

Thanks for loving them and helping them get through

That's what pure love is ----for Cash it is so true.


Cash we say: blue eyes, sparkly soul, love bug….





(love, auntie Janer)











Thinking of Cash

I love the pictures. I have been thinking about Cash all day, and especially during the hike today that Tess and Cash were to be on. We miss you guys and are sending lots of thoughts and love.

xoxo Sonja, Troy and Annabelle

Good Morning

Thinking about Mother's Day coming up I just wanted to post this picture of the greatest mom out there. I'm sitting here watching them sleep together like a momma and baby bear it's just wonderful.

They are so good to each other and I'm so lucky to be able to witness it.

Cash's Dad

good morning!

thanks for the recent pic - it put a smile on my face immediately! it's already printed and will go on my refrigerator this is truly an inspiration!!! stacy

Thursday, May 10, 2007

We're So Grateful for the little miracles

From the bottom of our hearts we are so incredibly grateful for all of you out there! We don't even know where to begin. As incredibly difficult as this has been for us here in room 409 it seems as though we experience small miracles every day. A video camera, T-shirt set up (thanks Sara), food showing up at the door from out of nowhere(thank you Truebloods), the Ask Jeeves account (thanks to all of you), Whole Foods Coupons, poems, letters, stuffed animals, diet cokes, prayers, stories to Cash, . . . , the list could go on and on and on and on. Each and every single thing has made a difference.

Thank you all so much.

Yesterday Spider came to the hospital for a visit and today the Grandmothers did a fingerpainting project with him. He continues to win the nurses over that they are having battles as to which one of his 'girlfriends' gets to take care of him each day.

And as we learn more and more about the whole experience, we are learning more about Cash....he loves to watch Grey's Anatomy and Sports Center. His body may not move that well but his mind is extremely active and bright. Plus he's his Daddy's son.thus the Sports Center.

The other night we met a family who lost their 4 month old son to SMA. The visit helped our spirits and this family will no doubt be a great support to us in the future.

Team Cash "inspiration" T-Shirts are coming soon and please keep posting stuff on the blog. We look forward to hearing from you all every day.

All our thanks, love, and gratitude

Cash, Teri, Page, Spider, and Cowie
HI Ter and Page and Cash!

Just wanted to say hi and thank you for calling me yesterday. You guys
are just the most amazing team!! we love you tons and are keeping you
in our prayers here in Maine.
Talk to you soon
Love, Bets

Warmth of heart...

Dear Cash,
I'm your Uncle Brian's big brother, Scott. I know you already know this - your parents are two of the most wonderfully warm people on the planet. I met you mom years ago when visiting Portsmouth and felt like I'd known her all my life. Her kind spirit and easy-going way made me feel like an old friend. Her loving and accepting nature quickly adds a quiet levity to every meeting. I had the great fortune to get to know your dad almost 2 years ago at Uncle Brian's wedding. Like your mom, his kind and gentle way made me feel like an old friend - comfortable & accepted. I've enjoyed every minute spent with your wonderful folks. You are a wonderful blessing to us just like them. I know that same warmth they shared with me is your comfort & joy today! Love and prayers, Uncle Scott

Silly Song

Hi Cash I want to sing you one of my made up silly songs... (they are all the rage with the under 6 set)

Here goes

Ginger and Odin are fuzzy and good
Running through the grass in my neighborhood
They pick up ticks they pick up fleas and trampled over my pretty green peas
Cowie and Spider come over to play
We think it's a fuzzy sunny day
First stick and then Ball the kitties aren't amused at all
Then it's time for Frosty Paws
All furry with paws and claws and love
Sleeping on the porch with the sun above

We love you!

Brian Brady Ginger & Odin
Hello little Cash.
Hello Teri.
Hello there Page,

I have been yearning to simply be with you all...lucky Spider...instead I send this love from all of us, a love to hold you without hands, cradle you without arms, kiss you without lips, (nuzzle you without a wet warm nose) and to see and support you without our soft eyes and strong shoulders. Oh love, do your magic.

Nancy, Sid, Michael and Ben

PS Teri and Page, your openness and the generosity expressed in your letters is staggering. Thank you. And thank you to friends and family whose community and love we share.

Wednesday, May 9, 2007

A poem for Cash

Here is a little poem I wrote tonight while I've been thinking of you and your mommy and daddy and sending you all the love in the world. Really honored to be an extended part of Team Cash, so much love is coming your way. Big love, Anna (in NH)

Cash of Moonlight
Cash of Grace
Cash of Strength
Sweet sweet face

Cash of Story
Cash of Sun
Prayer pours your way
From everyone

Cash of Spirit
Love abounds
Know that your family
Will always surround.

update from 409

Hi all,

Cash , mommy and daddy have decided to stay here at Children's Hospital for a while more. Spider came to visit us today with the great help from Grammy, Nana, and Jimbo(a few doctors, nurses and a pastor too) escorting our pups to a secret spot here so we could say hi and snuggle. Cash kind of slept thru the meeting but I am going to give the guy a break on that one. We are soaking Cash up, taking videos(thank you Marty for the camera) pictures, reading many books and snuggling when Cash is able. Words can not express the love and support we feel outside these walls from all of you. PLease keep posting, it is something we look forward to reading and as you can imagine....answering the phone is pretty difficult.
Page and I are doing the very best that we can , supporting and loving each we can be strong for our remarkable little boy who is our true guide thru all of this.
PLease hug your loved ones.......send this on to those who want to help but don't know know what to do.
We need your support now, we'll need it later.

love, Cash's Mommy

a little, little bedtime story about mom and dad

Dear Cash,
I loved reading Jennifer's story from New York City and I thought it might be nice to hear another fun story about your parents. I know my little boys love to hear about when Doug and I were little kids...Anyway, I met your mom a long time ago on a spring night in the back yard of my house on Marcy Street in Portsmouth. She was so fun and funny... there were lots of boys there, but us two ladies had a great time enjoying the stars and the beers . I'm not even sure if your Mom remembers this... but it was right when I was falling in love with my husband...I was so impressed with her laugh and kindness and hoped that we would be friends.
And your Dad is a hell of a guy... I met him a few years later after your mom fell in love with him... One day at our friend Brian's house, we were all having a casual day and to be truthful I can not remember the exact circumstances( which happens sometimes to grown ups) but it did become apparent that your Dad was missing for an extended period of time and then it became clear he was in the bathroom. Not just in the bathroom, but more like in the toilet. Brian's toilet had royally malfunctioned and your father spent hours , i mean hours, trying to rectify this situation. Here he was a guest in Brian's house and was seriously knee deep in some messy business. And let me say he was NOT responsible for the situation, just in case anyone was wondering... Anyway it became clear to me here was a man of extraordinary capabilities, patience and a sense of humor and I was very happy for your mom. (And still Brian stayed focused on flush not flood, flush, not flood...)
Anyway, Cash, I know you have lots of your mom and dad all wrapped up inside of you and it is a good thing. Cash I hope you are resting well and you have the medicine you need so that you do not hurt. All of our deepest love we are sending your way. Love Laura, and Doug.

Thanks Cash

Cash Man - I just wanted to say thanks. I just got home from a long draining day and work and saw your picture on my refidgerator. It brought me my first smile all day! So thanks little buddy for all the smiles you have brought to this world!

You are amazing people

Page, Teri and little Cash,
You are truly amazing and beautiful people. 
You wonder why people say they are so proud of you... In the face of everything that you are going thru you still have the ability and the capacity to not only 'take care of your own' but to reach out and take care of your friends and family. You are truly hero's to us all and remain in our thoughts and prayers.
Joey/ Uncle Joe

Dear Cash

Dear Cash,


In the words of Austin Powers, “Allow myself to introduce…myself.”  My name is Jennifer Russell and I am a friend of your Mom and Dad.  I haven’t had the good fortune of meeting you because I live far away in New York City.  You may have already heard of it, but if you haven’t it is a place with lots of tall buildings and lots and lots of people.  There is always something to do here like go to a museum, a great restaurant or a baseball game (go Yankees!).  I used to live in Denver, in fact, I used to live pretty close to Edgewater…maybe only a mile away.  I sure miss Colorado—especially the big blue sky and of course, the mountains.


From what I understand, it sounds like you have non-stop company visiting with you.  I heard that your Grandmother read you “Cat in the Hat.”  I just love that book!  That cat is silly, don’t you think?  Does he remind you of Cowie?  You probably miss her and Spider.  Did Spider come to visit you?  I bet he gave you a big kiss!  Did you introduce him to your friends Bananas and Blue Bear?  Spider is such a big fluffy dog.  I like his fuzzy tail and his oversized paws.  


So, I just wanted to tell you a few things about your parents that you probably don’t know.  Your Mom has the most beautiful vegetable garden.   I have always enjoyed being in their backyard looking at all the wonderful things that she has planted and cultivated.  Of course, your Dad is no slouch either.  Did you know that he made a hot tub with electric coffeemakers?  He did!  It sounds funny, but he built a container to hide them in, so you would never know.  I think it caught on fire or something, but no damage was done.  No harm, no foul, right?  (Oh, and your Mom makes the most delicious red velvet cake with fresh cherries on top)   I don’t have to tell you that they have the best smiles and the biggest hearts because you see that everyday.   They sure do love you and want you to start feeling better.  We all want that for you!


I hope to see new pictures of you soon.  You have a beautiful smile.  Say hello to your parents for me (and from Arne, too; he’s my husband).  I am thinking about them all the time.


Lots of love from NYC!





Sending Love to You

Page, Teri and Cash - We send all of our love to Room 409. You all are in our thoughts and prayers each day. We are touched by your bravery and courage as a family. Cash is such a special child to touch so many lives and to give strength to all of us. We love your updates and the images of you cuddling, reading, and soaking up every moment with him. You are all in our hearts every minute. Love to you. Kate & Ben


Hey Page, Teri, Cash, Spider and Cowie, it's Jason out in DC. Just got your latest email and my thoughts and love are with you all. What an incredible journey this little man is having. If I could choose to enter and leave this world, and the only thing I knew for the entire ride was the devoted love of my parents, I'd be a happy, feel-good man. You all are a solid, strong family and I wish I was with you my friends. Peace.


Dear Page and Terri,

We want you to know that our thoughts and prayers are with you.

We have shared Cash's situation and need and your needs, with the people
of our church, and we are ALL very concerned and are praying for you.

If there is anything that we can do, please just call or email.

We love you and care very much for you and Cash.
I will continue to share with our people so they can continue to pray.

And we will!!!

With our love and prayers...
Dave and Linda Kummer


I was so fortunate to have the opportunity to visit with Page, Teri and Cash Tuesday. They are such an extraordinary family.

We went on a "venture", around the hospital and out side for a few minutes. It was a great time that I will always treasure. We all laughed when Page Teri and Cash tapped the fish tank that said "Please don't tap the fish tank, it scares the fish".

In this time with them, Cash has will forever have an impact on my family. I feel as if someone just washed the windshield on my subaru and I can see the road better. It was as if Cash was telling me what I need to go do with my own children! And that if I can do that, that my children will do it with their families someday! Thank you, thank you, thank you Cash.

Thanks Page, Teri and Cash
Our prayers are with you!

Jimbo, Nikki, Wesley, Megan and Nolan

Dearest Cash,

You were so calm today, and we were glad to see you comfortable in your Mommy's arms. Your parents are completely awesome in the way they are caring for you. Every square inch of room 409 at Children's Hospital is filled with their love and yours. I am glad all of you have chosen to stay at the hospital rather than taking you home. Your parents are caring for you, and you are all surrounded by extraordinary doctors, nurses, and a wonderful staff, so your Mom and Dad can stay completely focused on you. Besides, Spider is coming for a visit later this afternoon! You will rendezvous with him on the sixth floor parking level. He will be so glad to see you! I wish Cowie could come as well.

I loved reading The Cat In The Hat to you yesterday. I especially love how your Mom and Dad have all your books at the hospital so they can read each one to you. When we saw you, you were surrounded by stuffed animals and had your special "Bananas" tucked under your arm. Your Mom and Dad were curled around you. You are safe and protected and are being given the best care any child could want.

We love you always,
Nana and Atta

Tuesday, May 8, 2007

Sending y'all love from the Blue Ridge Mountains

Cashy, Teri and Page:   I am back at the cabin now---sending you chunks of love from me, Johnny Ray, Lucy and Chuck.  I have several friends here who have asked their churches to pray for you guys----Episcopalians, Methodists, Southern Baptists, Catholics........Can you feel the southern cross?  
 I haven't left you guys--not even for a minute. Squeeze your hearts and I'll squeeze mine-----they are all are my people.  Love, peace, you guys in Room 409, your team cash at Children's (the grandparents!!!), your families who love you soooooo much, the staff at Childrens' and all who read this blog. 
Love, Auntie Janer

We Support You

Cash Phillips and his good folks Page and Tess,

Kari and I have been thinking a lot about the three of
you, trying to imagine what you are going through.
Even just feeling a bit of the emotion that must be
coursing through your life right now is overwhelming
to me, so I am humbled.

Please know, Page and Tess, that I have the utmost
respect for the life and family you created. You are
kind and loving and have been so gracious to myself
and my own family since day one of our friendship. I
am honored to be your friend and it would be my honor
to help the three Phillips' anyway I can.

Much love,


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Big love from some phillips fans in maine

Page, Terri and Cash,
You are in our prayers each night and our meditations in the quiet moments of the day. We are thinking of you and want you to know that Cash has some Mainers rooting for him. All our love. Laura and Doug

thoughts of you

p, t & cash-man -
please know that we are thinking of you, sending you rays of love and strength...
and support and peace and hope and calm and more love and more strength.
you are in our every thought....

page, teri & cash-man, you have penetrated our souls.

with so much love. marne & paul
Sending huge hugs and prayers for strength and peace .
I love you all so much.
Please give Cashy a big kiss from his Auntie Bicia

Thinking about the 3 of you . . .

Tess & Page:


Your update earlier today broke my heart.  Avra and I have been thinking about and pulling for you guys and little Cash nonstop.  I know it sounds trite, but please let us know if there is anything we can do for you or your family.


Pete Morgan

She's no Muhammad Ali, but Sylvia's still pretty good. When I need help, I usually return to either poetry or religion, and generally poetry first. To me Cash is the essence of life; the beauty, the love, the complexity, the tumultuousness-and to me these poems express that.


The Night Dances by Sylvia Plath

A smile fell in the grass.

And how will your night dances
Lose themselves. In mathematics?

Such pure leaps and spirals ----
Surely they travel

The world forever, I shall not entirely
Sit emptied of beauties, the gift

Of your small breath, the drenched grass
Smell of your sleeps, lilies, lilies.

Their flesh bears no relation.
Cold folds of ego, the calla,

And the tiger, embellishing itself ----
Spots, and a spread of hot petals.

The comets
Have such a space to cross,

Such coldness, forgetfulness.
So your gestures flake off ----

Warm and human, then their pink light
Bleeding and peeling

Through the black amnesias of heaven.
Why am I given

These lamps, these planets
Falling like blessings, like flakes

Six sided, white
On my eyes, my lips, my hair

Touching and melting.

Child by Sylvia Plath

Your clear eye is the one absolutely beautiful thing.
I want to fill it with color and ducks,
The zoo of the new

Whose name you meditate --
April snowdrop, Indian pipe,

Stalk without wrinkle,
Pool in which images
Should be grand and classical

Not this troublous
Wringing of hands, this dark
Ceiling without a star.

Hugs to the Phillips Family

Just wanted to let you know we are thinking of you all today and wishing we could give you all a hug right about now.
Paul and Marne

home update

Thank you everyone for all the kind words and support. This Blog is really helping us to feel the support outside of this room, and the hospital.
We are discussing home options today with a hospice Nurse. We may not be heading back to our house yet. Page and I are really frightened.
Please keep the posts coming. We just can't answer the phone right now as much as it rings but we need to hear from you..........and we'll need you all in the future.
Cash's mom

home today?

Hi Ter and Page and Cash!
We are thinking of you tons and praying that you get to head safely
for home today as you had planned. Talk to you soon.
Lots of love from all of us, Bets, Eddie and Sam

Monday, May 7, 2007

Dearest Little Cash,

I feel so lucky to have you in my life.  I first met you in the winter shortly after you were born...I got to see you every day for a whole week.   I grew to love you more and more everytime I saw  you....I remember the day I left when I held you in my arms and you looked right at me and listened as I talked to you .  I felt you understood everything I was saying....I kissed you goodbye and it was hard to leave you and your Mother and Dad....
I would call your Mother to hear all about you and she would send me great pictures that Grampa Scott and I just loved....We were sad that you lived so far away but so happy to see you getting bigger and hearing all about your hikes with Mom and Dad....
I am back in Colorado now and you are very sick...I get to see you everyday and when you look at me and I talk to you I still feel you understand everything I am saying to you and that you know that I love you more than life itself....You are a true brave heart....a child who's soul is bigger than his body...who is wise beyond his years...who knows nothing but love and goodness.   
In the short time you have been here on earth you have impacted so many people.....You are like Tinker Bell sprinkling fairy dust on all who come in contact with you....We are all better people for having known you.   You bring out the best in us all....
I love you my dear little pumpkin baby....Tomorrow I am going to read you the book The Poky Little Puppy....Did you know I used to read that story to your Mother and she cried every I read it to her...She loved that Poky little puppy....I know you love your doggy Spider and your kitty Cowie too...,,.,
I'll Love you Forever.....
Grammy Sandy

We miss you and are thinking of you always!!

Page + Teri + Cash + Spider + Cowie: We miss you soooo much and wish more than ever that we were back in Colorado. So happy to see photos of sweet little Cash. The love & support you receive daily is a reflection of your overwhelmingly kind souls & amazing strength. We love you, Will + Abby + Tank

From Mom and Dad

With my buddy Bananas

From Room 409

We can't thank you all enough for your love and support. It gives us great inspiration to see the posts and know how many of you are out there praying and supporting us. Thanks. Cash is resting well today and the sparkle in his eye contiues to touch everyone he meets. It's remarkable that he is the one giving us the stregnth we need to make it through this. Please keep posting and sending the prayers to us, we feel them and will continue to keep you all posted.

All our love,

Cash, Teri, and Page

Cash Rocks!!

Great seeing the crew on Sunday. We love you all so much.

Ben, Alli and Cullin

Cash Man

Page, Tess and our little fighter Cash-
You are in our thoughts every moment of every day. We our so honored to be part of this wonderful little man's life. Minute by minute as new news pours out from your family and friends on this blog, and the e-mails and phone calls that are going around, we are so touched by the strength that you as a family are showing in this difficult situation. You are wonderful, strong, courageous parents and an inspriation to all of us. Know that we are with you in spirit at every moment and will continue to be here for you always.
Paul & Marne Norquist