Concert For Cash 2011
WHEN: Saturday, January 22, 2011
WHERE: The Oriental Theater (http://www.theorientaltheater.com/)
4334 West 44th Ave, Denver, CO 80212
WHO: The Hollyfelds with Hillbilly Inferno
WHY: To raise money for programs at The Children’s Hospital
TICKETS: $35.00 VIP Patron Party / $20.00 General Admission(doors open GA at 7:15 pm),
available by calling 303-550-4310,
at the door
or online at
Or purchase directly online at:
Monday, December 22, 2008
Jan 31st at The Oriental Theater in Denver. www.theorientaltheater.com for tix or call me at 303.550.4310
Bands: Spring Creek Bluegrass
Elephant Revival Concept
The Snake Oil Band
There will be a Silent Auction too.
Door open at 6pm
Tix are $20.00
Wednesday, December 3, 2008
I saw The Fox tonight after guitar lessons. He just was out, cruising around Arvada. I know that Cashie is just telling me to keep holding on, taking care of me, and being healthy. I was on my way to Yoga....which helps with the grief.
I still cry most days, just in private. I just miss him so much and want to hold him again.
Soon, he's coming home soon.
I love you Beanie,
Monday, November 24, 2008
He did it for Cash.
Who's the Rock star now.
Page and I are humbled to tears that we have friends that continue to put our son in their hearts...and in this case..in their bikes, running shoes, etc.
Cash is love!!!!!Mike is Ironman. Two heros.
Saturday, November 8, 2008
We are planning another Benefit Concert for early Feb 2009. The money will go to Children's Hospital again, not the garden but hopefully the Bereavement Program. So other families can get some help too.
More to come.
Love you all.
The adoption process is slow but steady. Twins, keep thinking and wishing for Twins.
xoxoxo, Cashies Mommy
Thursday, October 16, 2008
Monday, October 13, 2008
I just ask you all now to send those strong good thoughts to 2205 jay st and get my son home soon.
I just need to be strong for my kid.
I love you Beanie,
Saturday, September 20, 2008
Wednesday, September 10, 2008
Monday, September 8, 2008
We spent the weekend with friends at a wonderful wedding and all the kids were there.
I didn't realize how much I need our friends....I miss them and they just want page and I to be happy. I has made me stop, take a minute and say I am very grateful for all our Friends who just love us.
On the Adoption front: We have put in for TWINS!!!!!!! YEEHAW! Why not I say, fill up our we any house with messes and diapers, and bottles, and toys. TWINS!!!!!
Cash joined me on my morning run today...just hanging on my shoulders, snuggling his Mommy. I feel so lucky that he stays with us . I am not sure if other people in our situation would feel their kids too. I hope so for them. He's a great running partner. He seems to really like Justin Timberlake songs:)))
Love to all and my Super Hero kid,
Friday, August 29, 2008
I love how thoughtful Cashie is. You know Page and I have been talking a lot about having another biological pregnancy. It's really scary, really scary. We have decided to forgo that thought for now and concentrate on adopting. From where I don't know yet.
Thank you all again for your support and love and understanding. Grief is such an long road and I know that there is no way i could feel as ok as I do today without you all who read the blog, and comment on it. I just can't thank you enough for caring.
xoxox, Cashie's Mommy
Sunday, August 17, 2008
I know the power of Team Cash...please say a few prayers for Becky and her girls and her late husband, John. He was a great husband and Dad. he will be missed dearly.
Thank you for your help.
xoxox, Cashie's Mommy
ps. and Cashie Angel, it's your job right now to go to Becky and hug her and let her know we all love her.
Saturday, August 2, 2008
Tuesday, July 15, 2008
About what our options are for Cash coming back to us: whether it's biological, IVF testing, or adoption and then a HUGE yellow butterfly flew right thru us all and hung out for a bit and flew on. I feel blessed by my angel.I know the answer will come when the timing is right. Thanks Cashie!!!!!
Thursday, July 10, 2008
WELCOME to Team Cash!!!!!
xoxox, Cash's Mommy
Friday, July 4, 2008
Monday, June 23, 2008
Sunday, June 22, 2008
You know, Cash just hangs out with me all the time and I trust that anyone reading won't think I am nuts, because he just is there/here. he visits, makes me laugh, tells me to do fun things, let's me not be afraid. I really hope that someday my story/our story will be helpful to someone else...and then i pray that no one ever needs to hear my story that SMA won't take anymore babies from their Moms and Dads. cash has plans for us. I dreamt of him 2 nights ago but it was in the future. He was a newborn, about 8 weeks old, and strong. he could hold his head up. and his body was strong. at the time I didn't recognize him because I was so amazed that he has such strength and then I realised that it was Cashie. and he was blond and super healthy and STRONG.
So I know he's on his way back to me. back to all of us. Cash is just doing his Angel job right now, watching over marne's Dad and keeping all those boaters safe.
I love you my super hero.
Sunday, June 15, 2008
Happy Father's Day everyone and thanks to everyone who has called and lent some support. I truly appreciate it.
Friday, May 30, 2008
Please pray for his recovery.
This means you to Beanie, the most powerful little angel around. Your job is to be with Marne's Dad and take care of him. Make him feel better.
I love you my hero, Cash's mommy
A Prayer for my Dad
I ask everyone to please say a prayer, send beautiful thoughts, make angelic wishes, every morning, every afternoon and every evening for my dad. My dad! My dad, whose main purpose in life is to be the wonderful father that he is to his four kids and son-in-law. And in about 5 months he will be able to be a wonderful a poppie. My dad, a first time poppie! I know how amazing he will be with the little one! We need him to get better fast because we count on him, more than he will ever know! My dad, who calls his kids every Friday night no matter what. My dad, who has the best sense of humor. My dad, the “tough guy” with the biggest heart ever. My dad, who gives great hugs. MY dad. Right now, at this very moment, MY DAD needs all of the love in the universe to surround him! Remember…PRAYERS, BEAUTIFUL THOUGHTS AND TONS OF ANGELELIC WISHES for my dad.
Monday, May 26, 2008
I love you beanie,
Monday, May 19, 2008
Thursday, May 15, 2008
You know the scary part now is : how do we do this again?' how do we try for a biological baby....when the odds are not guaranteed. I think I am just doubting that we will be OK, and I have been reading more about other people with SMA type 1 Children. The similarities are astounding.
On May 14th Page and I took the day off to go to The Cash's Healing Garden site at Children's to talk about the design we want to do. You know the garden site has a great view of the Mountains. it's really a great place already. I can't wait to get started.
Than we drove to The Garden of The Gods in Colorado Springs and took the dogs for a Hike. I think I just needed to get out of Denver and the house for that day...and be on a mini vacation for everything and just celebrate Cashie...hiking. It's a really pretty place.
I don't know how different i feel today, a bit freer..if that's a word. I know we are going to be OK. I know we will have healthy babies, I just don't know when.
Thank you all for the love. it has meant the world to me.
I love you my Cashie.
Tuesday, May 13, 2008
Teri, Page, Cash, Spider, Strype and Cowie -
You all will be front and center in my mind all day long tomorrow. Sending you my love and support. I know it will be a tough day but get outside, see what nature can show you, remember Cash and know that he's still a part of us all. I was in Los Angeles a year ago May 14th and after talking to Page and getting the news I headed straight for the beach. Being outside has always been the best serum for me to concentrate and analyze the events that make life, life. I wasn't sure what to do after hanging up with Page so I wrote this in the sand and took a picture with my cell phone. I still believe it. Love you both.
Tuesday, May 6, 2008
We are moving ahead with our Adoption process for our Chinese daughter. It's a very long process but that seems ok for right now.
So Mother's day is Sunday....what am i to do? well, I signed up to run the Title Nine event in Boulder on Mother's day. I had signed up to do it last year with Cashie in a jogger, but the day after we bought the jogger....we ended up at Children's. So this year I am running it with Cash on my tshirt and on my shoulders. tell me that's not a powerful Mother's day. it amazes my the strength of the human spirit and the love my kid pours out to me even in his Spirit form. I feel him there all the time....sometimes on my shoulders sometimes on my chest...just hanging on.
I miss him so yet i know deep in my soul that he is coming back to me.
I just need to be less scared and trust that I can do this, I have the skills, I am a freakin' GREAT mommy. He is on his way back...just cruising the cosmos...helping out others where needed. I think Cashie hangs out with his 2 grandmothers a bunch too. I love that.
I love you my flying angel.
Sunday, April 27, 2008
My therapist says that i need to stop living there in my head, that Cash is not at Children's that he is free. it's just so painful and I just want to be happy again. i just want Cash home.
These are tulips that page and i planted the fall of 2006...a few months before Cash arrived. I wanted such a huge blast of color for Him and for visitors and to celebrate my son. So today i picked a few to enjoy inside and here so you can enjoy them too.
cash does bring such power, vibrant love to my life. i just miss him so very much. i pray these next 2 weeks go by fast and I can laugh..my son is not sick anymore. i miss you beanie. love , Mommy
Monday, April 21, 2008
May 14th is coming up. It will be one year on the day that Cashie became an Angel. Page and I need loads of prayers if you have them.
I love you My super kid,
Sunday, April 13, 2008
Thursday, April 10, 2008
I miss my son with the bottomless pit of grief, it never lets up, it is always there and I am always aware the our lives are forever changed because Cash blessed us with his life. I am not the same person I was a year ago. I never will be her again. Yet somewhere in my soul I know that it's going to be OK for Page Cash and I. That we will be together again. That our journey as a family is far from over.
So please keep your prayers up. I know there are a lot of other people who need them, and we pray for those folks too. and the war to end.
Please know that as we approach May 14Th and that will be 1 year since Cashie passed in my arms at Children's that Page and I struggle to get thru each moment of each day...how we go on I do not know except that I know my Son will be back with me. I believe in reincarnation( and I don't know if i did before all of this but how can i not now)and that's what is getting me by right now. So I ask you this, please don't doubt me or call me crazy...because I know what's real. And I know my kid. Just help us to have patience until that day arrives.
All my love , Cashies Mommy
Sunday, April 6, 2008
Saturday, April 5, 2008
Wednesday, March 19, 2008
Monday, March 17, 2008
So raise your glasses please: to old friends, new friends, hearts full of love and the laughter that brings us together.
To my brave son, my Irish Blessing.
All my love,
Thursday, March 6, 2008
I also have realised that these days right now are all :memory days" Where Cash and I were crusing around, taking hikes with Mountain Mams or Daddy on the weekends. We were going shopping and starting to garden again....and he was with me every minute of those 16 weeks (except just a few) and I just miss him. I miss my Monkey kid who hung on me. 2 days ago I was sitting here working and I heard noises outside. I looked out the window to see 3 ladies pulling wagons, strollers full of babies. They were from the day care that Cash was going to go to and they sometimes take the kids down our street on their walks. I heard them say" this is Cash's house"....and just as they walked on my neighbor knocked on the door...and I just started to cry. He was so kind and nice to me. I have to take that as a sigh that babies are on their way to us...not as a sad thing. As much as I miss him there is this inner sense that it's all going to be ok.
There is this show on TV(yes, I am a HUGE TV person) called ' men In Trees' its' set in Alaska and there's a character named Cash. He is pretty sick, but the show itself has good meanings to its stories. Like this week I got" life always works out" I think my Dad would say that to me. I just have to stay strong in my beliefs that life will work it's way out for us.
You know I think about what God's plan for us is a lot. Why us? Why Cash? and then I believe that Cash came here to be a teacher to us, he teaches me daily to have love in my heart, to be kind, to be brave, to face what scares me. And being without him scares me but I have to face that every hour of every day. Have can I be with out my Heart and Soul. Shelly, my friend and teacher, has told me that for right now Cash is my Angel on my shoulder. I can feel him sitting there, cheering me on as I run and ski, grabbing my braids and yelling" go mama go!" so I am not without my Son just him physical body. And that was way to sick for his soul.
So off O go...trusting in the gut feelings I get, the" it's going to be OK and we;ll be together again' I trust that will happen...and Page and I will be joyously exhausted from lack of sleep...but i 'll take it.
All my love my sweet angel Cashie, mommy
Monday, March 3, 2008
Tuesday, February 26, 2008
I saw The Fox last week while running with the dogs. It was in Wheatridge and we stared at each other for a long time while I cried and cried at the side of Chase Street. I know Cashie just couldn't live the life he wanted(or we wanted ) for him with his little sick body.
I saw twin 3 year olds skiing with their dad on Sunday at ABAsin. I skied up to the dad and asked how old they were b/c They were so little, I was just amazed at their skiing.One of them looked up at me, googles covering his face and he just babled at me with a huge smile. I just cried as I skied off, sad and happy at the same time because I know that is our future with our kids. little ski family, all bubbly at the Basin. Trading off runs for diaper changes and feedings......so happy to be changing diapers again. not caring it's a powder day. I know it's coming our way, I can feel it...and if you have any thoughts for Page and I please let them be of us, arms full of baby gear, going skiing....
xo, cash's mommy
Sunday, February 17, 2008
So, Happy Birthday to me.. here's a bit of amazing news:
The Benefit Concert raised over $36, 000.00 !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Thank you to all who helps, donated, bought tix, told friends about it, stood by our sides as we walk thru this journey................we hope for a beautiful garden.
Monday, February 4, 2008
Art Show: Sam Bissell is having a Photograph show this Saturday. Proceeds from a raffle will go towards the Cash's Garden Fund. Please support Sam. He is our neighbor and a wonderful gardener.
SQUARE DEAL FRAMING & GALLERY
1460 SOUTH COLORADO BOULVARD
DENVER, CO 80214
Saturday, February 9, 1:00PM to 5:00PM
303-238-0231 OR 303-947-7525
Thursday, January 31, 2008
I miss you Cashie.
Wednesday, January 23, 2008
Monday, January 21, 2008
We don't have exact numbers yet from the event on Friday but I know we have surpassed whatever the goal was. I can tell...it was nuts in the theater. So many people having fun........celebrating Cash's life and Spirit.
Please check out this blog from The Reverb blog on The Denver Post Online. all my gratitude goes out to YOU!!!!!!!!!
The engergy in that place amazing. He is a magical little boy to give the energy to pull something like that together.
Thank you to you all for coming out and supporting the Garden. We will channel all of this incredible energy from everyone right into the Garden and it will be an equally magical spot.
We have had some questions about how well the fundraiser did and though we don't have any specific numbers (I promise that as soon as we get some more concrete numbers we will broadcast them) we blew away the intital goal of raising $10,000.
I think it was a great night for everyone and I thank all of you for helping us celebrate this incredible little kid.
All our love,
P.S. If you took any pictures during the show would you mind sharing them with us? thanks.
Thursday, January 17, 2008
Cash is magic. He decided to begin his journey into the world today, on Muhammad Ali's Birthday. I know I've told this story over and over and over, but today I would tell him that he was named after an incredible man and that he too would do great things. And today, I've got evidence that he is magic and that he is doing incredible things (Cash's Garden) and changing people's lives. So thank you Cashie for deciding to begin your journey into the world today (Yes, Cash's Birthday is tomorrow but he started labor today). You are my boy and I can't even begin to describe how much I miss you my little man.
Thank you everyone for your love and support. We will see you tomorrow night for an incredible celebration.
Wednesday, January 16, 2008
I just miss my little man. And I am excited about the benefit concert and I am so very sad that this is how we are celebrating his bday. and yet we are celebrating Cash's life and his spirit. Which is bigger than all of us. He is my guiding light, he is my love, he is my heart and soul. I am blessed to be Cash's Mom. I do know we are doing the right thing by building this Healing Garden At Children's. I am grateful we will have a place to let people go and sit and be quiet. Just like we needed with Cash.
So if you are going to the Concert on Friday night-Thank you in advance. Let's really celebrate Cash's Spirit, his life, his lessons, his heart......full of love. To the cutest baby , I love you my baby boy, my beanie. I miss you. Good thing are coming our way.
To Cashie, my magic kid.
May he bless you all too.
Sunday, January 13, 2008
We thought we would be taking Cash to The casa for his first birthday , that's what Page wanted. Instead we are throwing a huge party in his honor to build a garden to help other families thru their time at Children's. Not really what we had planned.
I wish children did not get sick.
I miss my son so much. I am scared.
I wish other people besides Page and I would say that they missed Cash too.
I know Fox was letting mommy and daddy know that he is hear with us, every second of everyday and that he misses us just as much as we miss him. Our magic boy.
I love you Cashie. My magic kid. I wish you were in my arms right now so we could snuggle and play.
Thursday, January 10, 2008
I spent 6 hours with all women skiers, talking up a storm as women do.....and you know one of the first questions someone asks you is" do you have kids"...so There I am riding up the chair w/a classmate and she asks me that very question. I start to cry(luckily I had goggles on) and caught my breath and told her we have a son. but we lost him in May. And she said..I am glad you made it thru the holidays. It was such a great response. Like she knew or something that my being in this class with women skiing was a feat in itself, let alone getting out of bed and dealing with life.
I have been getting emails from people I have yet to meet about the Benefit Concert. Calls too thru the Denver Post Article. We are hoping for a good turn out. I am not as nervous as I was a week ago.
You know my kid teaches me something everyday. I think today it was to have a little more FAITH in humanity. Sometimes I can get so caught up in my life, my world, my sorrow that I forget that there are people out in the world just praying for us and Cash. People I may not know yet. I am not sure what this journey that Page , Cash and I are on will bring us next...but I know we are a family. And that alone has made us stronger as people. I hope someday I will be able to help all these people who are working their tails off to help us right now.
All my love goes out to everyone.
Saturday, January 5, 2008
xo, Cash's Mommy