Hi

Well, we met with EDAW(Landscape Architechs that are designing The Children's Hospital) and Holly Anderson today about the Garden. To be blunt: it's going to be quite the process but Page and I knew this going into this. it's not like I can drive to the Plant Nursery and buy plants and pop them in the ground......there are lots of meetings, etc that will have to happen to see this thru.
We Will keep you updated as soon as we know more. Hopefully we will have our Fundraising goal soon.....

Personally: I --was having a hard time today, this week...really questioning it all. The whys, the Why us...and then something snapped n me tonight as I was running w/the dogs. I feel like I snapped out of the funk, at least for a while. Hope is back.
You know, I also picked my guitar back up, a little music therapy for my soul. Sometimes I think : will I ever really learn to strum? will I find songs I can play and sing with?
These are the questions I have tonight. not bad for a grieving Mommy. I'll take this over crying a hyperventilating any day!!

Good nite all

Proudly, so proud of my kid, I mean what a friggin' Rock Star to come, be with us, be so damn cute, get to know us even with a terminal disease. I am not sure if I could be that brave. could you?
Cash Rocks!!!!!!!!!
Cash's Mommy

Friendly, Compassionate, Determined

Dear Cash,
I was looking at a cool site called Colorstrology today and here's what it said about you ... Friendly, Compassionate, Determined.
YOUR imagination and dreams help guide you toward your goals. Once you have found them, you must pursue them with persistence, flexibility and ease. It is your love of life and childlike quality that everyone admires and relates to. Your personal color helps you maintain your humility and honor. Wearing, meditating or surrounding yourself with Deco Rose helps you feel strong, safe and truly secure yourself.
I think my color is in the Aqua family. I blogged about you today. If you want to read it, you can go here. Looking forward to helping your parents with your Healing Garden Benefit Concert - they are putting a lot of love and energy to it and I am certain it is going to be THE event of 2008.
Love,
Alli

Benefit Concert

Hi, We are forging ahead with Benefit concert plans. The tix will be ordered today or tomorrow. So we will have them for sale soon, also The Oriental Theater will have tix for sale on their website www.theorientaltheater.com

You know, it is hard to get out of bed. Some days I just don't want to face reality that this has happened. and other days i am filled with hope for our future. It's kind of a crap shoot as to which way the day will go.

Page saw a fox this Am .Our pumpkin letting Daddy know it's going to be alright, that there is a plan for all this pain and sadness.

I am hoping for a better day than yesterday. That was a hard one.
Cash's Mommy

tired

You know with all the hoopla of Halloween, it just makes me tired. I find myself exhausted recently...today. Maybe I take on too much, or don't say no enough. Maybe it's that one hard work issue that sapped me of all I had left, maybe it's just plain missing my baby boy. I just read an article in the OCT 2007 Skiing Mag about " The Power to Heal". It was written by a Dad who lost his son and skiing has helped him heal, very slowly. I hope that helps Page and I this Winter . We are so looking forward to it. I cried so hard as I read the short story of this Dad's journey thru the past 3 years. Not for me but for him. It isn't supposed to happen. and it makes us members of this really sad club of parents who have lost a child. and the only people that can even try to understand are those who also have been thru it.
Right now I am trying to just get by.....
Love you my little beanie
cash's mommy

Happy Halloween

Today is one of those days when I think about what I was supposed to be doing. I would have pushed for Cash to be a Denver Bronco for his first Halloween. I would have taken anything though, a baby mountain lion cub, bumblebee, pirate, cowboy, . . . . anything . . . . . I just wanted to parade him around the block. It just makes me really sad that I can't do that today. Instead I'll just do my best to think about the future. Today will turn out ok, I just gotta believe that it will.

Cash's Daddy

World Series

Hi, Let's face it: Cash is a Red Sox fan like his Mom. (check out my hat in previous posts)He was in my tummy for 9 months. It had to get into him somehow. Although there have been questions about his football preferences....Cash is also a Broncos Fan. His Daddy wouldn't have it any other way. Watch for Page at the Game tonight.

We met Sam Jones yesterday. What a beautiful baby. It was a JOY to have Jules , Martin and Sam over to visit and the first time I didn't break down with a baby....Sam is just a healing little power house.
I was so amazed at how he moved. So was Page. We just never saw Cash move like that. It was really wonderful.

xoxo,
Cash's Mommy

Cash

Hi all,
We are in the middle of a big mailing to ALCC members. If you need to call for more info, my # is 303.550.4310.
The garden and benefit concert are keeping us busy. Along with cheering for Red Sox or Rockies..........and lots of help from trusted souls.
Thank you for all your thoughts and prayers.
Cash's Mommy