Strength

Teri and I have been friends for a long time, a long time. We have been through a lot and it seems that anything we go through brings us closer, hence the reason she is my best friend. I want Teri to know how much I appreciate her friendship, her love, her ideas, her strength and all that she is. I admire that she gets up in the morning and has the courage to go through the day. I admire that she is taking such a tragedy, as Cash's death is, and moving on with such strength and drive to make her world better. Teri never stops, she never has, yet now, she is so much wiser than I have ever known her to be. Whenever I am with her, I am inspired to do more, to experience more and it seems even more apparent now, in the wake of her loss. Thank-you Teri for keeping going and for showing me your incredible determination. You should be proud of yourself, as I know all of your friends and relatives are. You show us to go on, to grow and to live, even through incredible sadness. I love you Teri. Thank-you for being my very best friend. Love, Tam

courage

I believe that courage is all too often mistakenly seen as the absence of Fear. If you descend by a rope from a cliff and are not fearful to some degree , you are either crazy or unaware. Courage is seeing your fear, in a realistic perspective, defining it, considering alternatives, and choosing to function spite of the risk.
-Leonard Zunin
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I found this in a Book of readings form North Carolina Outward Bound School I did a Semester course with way back in College.
I know Page and I need courage now to continue on.....to keep getting up, to go to work everyday...even when we want to stay in bed and sleep and cry.
Please keep up your prayers.
Cash's Mommy

oprah

Hi all,
Page and I are organizing a Benefit Concert to raise $$ for The Cash Scanlon Phillips Memorial Garden to be built at Childrens' Hospital. Some of you may have read about it on our blog at : www.teamcash.blogspot.com

We are asking for help. There will be a Silent Auction at this event. We are asking folks who can to collect things from their favortite busiensses to be auctioned off. Some examples have been: A Haircut from a Salon, Artwork, A signed copy of a Great book, Tickets to an Event....whatever you can think of.

Or if you would like to help out in another way you could send an email to Oprah...yup Oprah. I sent an email to here staff telling them about Cash's short life here on Earth, how he was named for Mohamad Ali(Cassius Clay) , what a fighter he is. How he has really changed peoples lives with his Spirit. I asked Oprahs staff for help with this Benefit Concert by the way of getting a Big Name performer there. I mentioned Sheryl Crow, John Mayer., The Fray, Big Head Todd., Josh Blue the comedian....I am shooting BIG!

Below is the link to Oprahs site.
The Benefit details are:

Date Jan 18th, 2008(Cash's Birthday)
Place: The Oriental Theater, North West Denver
Time: 7pm-??
We have one Bluegrass Band already, we are looking for more atlent
The donations go towards The Childrens' Hospital Foundation Fund for Cash Scanlon Phillips Memorial Garden.

Thanks for taking the time to read this. We are doing ok, lots of therapy, lots of tears. We have hope for our future as parents but our hearts are shattered beyond comprehension. I cry all the time.
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brave

We checked out a few bands last nite. Not really what we were looking for but it was good to be out, even though it makes me tired today. I miss Cashie. I miss my baby.I am trying to be brave.
Cash's Mommy

beach time in Humarock

ellen and I at Cash's Cairn-left

mom and me on the beach-right

Hi all,

This past Labor Day weekend Page and I went to stay with my cousin Ellen at her home in Mass.

We laughed, cried, shared, enjoyed the company of family that we haven't seen in years. It's hard to describe how much it meant to me to be there, flown in by my Aunt and Uncle to just be taken care of. My Mom, Stepdad, Aunt, sister, cousins cousins cousins, uncle, family!!!!!!!!

It was such a generous gift of love, caring, family. We were surrounded by love, smiles, conversations about everything.

This beach is one of my favorite places on Earth. It's where I spent time with my Grandmother, it's where Page and I went to help us heal.

My cousin Ellen and her kids, Jecca and Luke and their kids: Declan, Elle, Boston, Luke, and Shia....plus a bunch of other folks built a Cairn for Cash at the opening to the beach steps at Ellen's House.

We have placed some of Cash's ashes there. At my favorite place, my favorite beach, to be close to Ellen and bring her company and Cash's magic.

The tears flow so much. Some days are ok, some are really hard.

I miss Cashie so much.

PLease keep your prayers up for baby Kai.

And thank you for all the Benefit Concert/Silent Auction items:

Please send them to us at :

2205 Jay Street

Edgewater, CO 80214

You are all a great help to Page and I. PLease know we love everyone of you......even if I can't always answer my phone.

xoxo,

Cash's Mommy

A Prayer Please

Our friends Alistar, Bettina, and their newborn need a prayer. They are in Children's Hospital and in the middle of a serious situation. We have asked Cash to help them and we ask that everyone out there say a prayer or light a candle or send them some good energy.

Thank you and all our Love,

Cash, Teri, Spider, Stripe, and Cowie

Whale Cousins - Update

Just a quick update on the Whale Cousins: Cash (Tear), Tyler (Eden), Audrey (Ember) and Emily (Trident) were all sighted at various times throughout the summer. All have been feeding at Stellwagen Bank (where we went for our whale watch this spring). Ember seems to be the most interested in the research boats, spending long periods of time circling around and under them.

I'm very happy that these whale cousins are getting to spend some time playing together. I can only imagine the magnificent sandcastles they have made on the Atlantic floor.

We miss you little Cashie....

Uncle Joe, Auntie Brenda, Audrey and Emily