We are struggling. My tears flow all the time, I get a break at times during the day, but then it hits all over again. People said when we first got home from the hospital that this was going to be a long road, I did not want to think that would be us...well...almost 7 weeks out and it's a long long bumpy windy dark road that we are trying to navigate...but there is no map for this.
We desperately want to find some couple to talk to that has walked this walk before us and gone on to have more children. A couple that lost their first child when it was an infant....we feel like the only couple on the planet sometimes that lost their first kid.
Cash is with me everyday. He lets me know he's around. I see Butterflies all the time.
Other ways to help:
call/email/check in with us. It's not always easy for me to pick up the phone when I am hurting this bad.
Help me plan a Game Night for Cash....maybe with poker and Bunco to raise $ for the Garden Fund.
Send your photos of your adventure with Cash in your tshirt. Celebrate the great soul of Cash.
I ask myself(and my sisters and Mom) all the time: There has to be a reason, what is it? I do trust that there is a reason for this to happen. That there are other plans for Page, Cash and I on this Earth. Just believing that helps get me out of bed daily when I don't want to.
Please keep us in your prayers.