my son

I knew the benefit concert was not going to take all the pain away and I did feel good for a week or so but I think I am coming down from the event. I just miss my so, my beanie so much. I stil cry all the time, usually alone....but had a grief attatck on the cjair lift yesturday while in my lesson. I just never know when it's going to come up. I just miss him and I want to be like those other mom's and Dad's I see at Eldora with their little kids in ski lessons. I want that too. I know that's our future....the waiting is the hard part.

I miss you Cashie.
Cash's Mommy