2008 WILL BE GREAT!

Hey everyone. Happy New Year and Let's pray for an incredible 2008. 2007 has been rough and I'm putting energy into the universe that 2008 will be awesome. I'm so thankful for an incredible wife and son who have taught me lessons beyond words. I just can't put it into words what they mean to me.

I'm thankful for my family, my inlaws, and all of our friends and supporters. We love you all and thank you from the bottom of our hearts.

A Tribute to Everyone

Hi Everyone, I just want to share this with you all. It's a tribute to you all and Cash.

http://www.denverpost.com/news/ci_7807676

This kid is amazing and Cash's Garden is bringing out the very best in everyone.
Without you all this wouldn't be possible and for that we are deeply grateful.
Grief is ugly and messy and it's also beautiful. I thank you all for helping keep our spirits alive.

With Love and Gratitude,
Cash's Daddy

Don't Quit

Hi, This is Page and I in jail. Please know that as much as I cry I have to keep smiling for all the blessings I have. Let this picture tell you that we are ok, just sad.

It's Friday afternoon. I just took the pups for a run around town. You know since I spend a great deal of time alone during the winter months I have been thinking about what I was supposed to be doing today if Cash were here on Earth. I know he was just too sick , and it would have been so hard to keep him healthy....or as healthy as he could be. I just miss my son today. Like everyday.

I have received so many emails about ticket sales from the ticket posse. You guys are amazing. You know our goal is just to pack the place. make it a good night, make some noise and joy. So, please don't stress if your tickets haven't sold.....that's not as important as just celebrating this kid. Ok? you with me? Just call me or email if you need help w/your tix sales.

My Mom sent me this really great poem today, that my Grandmother(my idol) sent her when she was my age...it was about hope and I am going to post it. And since my Mom will be at the concert-I think she may need a bit of joy herself. It's one thing for Page and I to go thru this but our Families are all grieving for Cash and us and themselves too. I am so grateful everyone met Cash and got to be touched by his spirit, his eyes, his smile.

Don't Quit
Author Unknown
When things go wrong, as they sometimes will,

When the road you're trudging seems all uphill,

When funds are low and the debts are high,

And you want to smile but you have to sigh,

When care is pressing you down a bit,

Rest if you must, but don't you quit.
Life is queer with its twists and turns,

As every one of us sometimes learns,

And many a failure turns about,

When he might have won if he'd stuck it out.

Don't give up, though the pace seems slow -

You may succeed with another blow.
Often the goal is nearer than It seems to a faint and faltering man;

Often the struggler has given up

When he might have captured the victor's cup

,And he learned too late, when the night slipped down,

How close he was to the golden crown.
Success is failure turned inside out -

The silver tint of the clouds of doubt,

And you never can tell how close you are -

It may be near when it seems afar;

So stick to the fight when you're hardest hit -

It's when things seem worst that you mustn't quit.

Love and Peace,MOM

Christmas Blessings

Well, we survived and thrived in Taos for the holiday weekend. We skied and skied and skied some more, Hot Springs, Car troubles(which Page fixed!), live Music, the puppies running in the snow as we skied along open country roads in the Moon Light. Chimyao was amazing, healing, and necessary for our well being.
Thank you all for the well wishes and to come home to listen to a message from Cash's God father, Jason was just what we needed. Then to open gifts from my Mom and know we are not alone on Christmas really helped us both.

Today we woke up to an article in The Denver Post about Cash's Garden and the benefit concert. What a gift. I am grateful to be a Mom, a Wife , and a Family this Christmas. As sad as it could have been it was our least stressful holiday.

Merry Christmas to all,
Cash's mommy

Our Fox

We were walking home from dinner at our friends Joanne and Rob's late last night. Up ahead of us I saw our Fox scurry across the street. Just checking in on Mom and Dad I think.
We are heading to Taos for Christmas with the puppies. Merry Christmas to everyone.Be safe and hugs your loved ones.

I love you pumpkin,
Cash's Mommy and Daddy

Tickets are avaliable online! Yay!!

Hey everyone, we finally have a site where people can buy tickets to Cash's Garden Benefit Concert online.

http://www.brownpapertickets.com/event/25788


we are really excited. Please pass this along to anyone you know who might be interested.
Thanks so much for your support. Happy Holidays.

Cash's Daddy

Some Team Cash Images

Your photos are awesome and inspiring. Please keep sending them in.

All our love,

Page, Teri, and Cash

Thursday Am-Denver Post

So we met with The Denver Post reporter at Children's yesterday. We walked to the Garden site and told our story about Cash. I love listening to Page talk about his son, the pride that just oozes from him about our little boy. It is so amazing to me. It's so hard to watch the one you love the most being heartbroken and there is nothing I can do. Page is just so amazing, his strength. His courage, his willingness to go to therapy and do all the work. I am in awe of him.

I don't know if all husbands would be that open. I know I am blessed to have Page and my best friend. Cash was with me today at Boot Camp....making me run up all those stairs...you know he makes me run because couldn't.

I love you Page and Cashie, my boys. I am blessed.
Cash's Mommy

frozen tears

Hi, It's Monday morning. We skied all weekend with each other and the dogs. Boy those pups can run fast.
I have been skiing in some fashion for almost 35 years. I have never cried skiing before until this weekend. I just get on the first chair and cry......and think of Cashie. My eyelids freezing a bit and I cry for my son. I miss him so much.
I went to the Sunday on mountain service at the Basin yesterday. I love that I can ski right up to it. And I cried so hard there. The nice Pastor said a prayer for Cashie. I know he is with us while we ski, it's just I thought we would all be there together , swapping out turns, changing diapers, etc. It's hard to go ski when I know Cashie would have been with us but it's the only thing we can do to make him proud of us that we are still fighting the fight.

At Boot Camp this am we had to run these 12 flights of stairs 3 times, I kept saying in my head: "I have nothing else to lose, I have nothing else to lose"....as I chugged up the steps...and by the third trip up the steps I was saying: "Healthy baby, healthy baby, healthy baby".
I know there is a plan for us 3..............I know it. i know Cashie is with us today. Saying Keep fighting Mommy. I never knew I had so many tears inside of me. Keep fighting Mommy. I love you Cashie.
Cash's Mommy

Garden Site

Hi to everyone. I know it's been a while since I've made a post. With the snow here I've been missing Cash a bunch. One of my main aspirations with him was to be able to take him skiing. I still have, but I just wanted him to experience the wind on his face and feel the freedom of the hills . . . . even though with his SMA that wouldn't have ever been a possibility. So I'm sad, but I know that he is with me.

The photos are where we are planning on putting Cash's Garden. Yes, we really have a site and his garden is going to be a reality. With this said, we still need help selling tickets for the Cash's Garden Benefit Concert. If you know anyone that is interested or would want to help, this is a way for them to do so. For all of you that have been helping, a heartfelt thanks for your help and support.

Boot Camp Strength

Hi, So as I was kicking the crap out of a huge punching bag at Camp this am I started to cry. I think about my Son, and how strong he is, how much strength he had to stay here with us for 4 months with SMA. His little hands curling up and we thought he was getting better all the time. Cash is strength he is love he is goodness he is perfection. So please take a moment today hug someone you love, talk to someone who needs to hear your voice, call your mom and dad and tell them you love them. My son is my whole heart and soul and I miss him with so much power it makes me have to believe that Cash is here with his mommy today...pushing me to be strong, to kick harder, to be nicer. To breathe.
Cash's Mommy
ps...I love you Cashie

living in the present

Hi, It's Sunday morning and we are gearing up to go skiing. and it's cold outside today.
I woke up with thoughts of the past, as I often do, or thoughts of the future....what I hope for. Rarely do i Think of the present. That has always been the case with me....I have always been a future thinker....and for right now, for today , I need to take a break from that and be really happy about what I have in my life right now: A loving husband, 2 great and fuzzy dogs , and cat who has been with me longer than anyone else ...and a whole family that loves me and friends that support me. a business that thrives and people to work with who are amazing.
I have the spirit of my little boy to guide me along my way. My Angel , my Cashie.

Thank yo all for helping us to sell tix.
We couldn't do this without you.

love, Cash's Mommy

back in denver

Hi, We are back in town. It's amazing after being gone, having such a great vacation....I realized this AM that it was also a vacation from the familiar surroundings, all the memories, all the stuff that is here at our home. I Just found a huge box of medical supplies in The Nursery that was supposed to be for Cash if we were going to take him home from Children's and do Hospice here. I didn't even know it was here in the house. I just don't want to have that sick energy in our home where we are fighting to heal, fighting to just stay positive . I miss holding my son.
I was in a Class this Am , exercising and had my Team Cash shirt on....I was struggling a bit and the instructor said" do it, you can do it, do it for the baby" and he pointed to my shirt. Now, I don't know this instructor but he got me. I have to do it for Cashie. I have to keep going. I have to be strong. He was with us in St Johns. And as we flew home, the clouds were so beautiful. I said to page" Do you think that's what Cashie sees as he is flying around? All that beauty?"
I think he does. I know he is free. And I know he loves him Mommy.
I know he is here. Cash is here.
Cash's Mommy