It's hard to make sense of all of this. We brought Cash to the hospital thinking everything would be fine and he didn't come out with us. It's going to take and long time to come to grips with this but what we are holding on to is that this incredible little guy gave us the stregnth to be good parents for him. It has been and will always be an amazing honor to be his father. It also has been an amazing honor to witness the love and ultimate caring his mom has for him. To think that he gave us the gift of mother's day is beyond words. The reality though is that we was incredibly sick and didn't let anyone know until the very end of his physical life.
So yes, we are incredibly sad, and we miss him every second, and yes when it gets quiet it's scary for us as we think about what has actually happened. Living in this realm of what's beyond comprehension is inexplicable. . . . . But, he is a gift and we choose to exist with him that way. Today and every day he is everywhere. We will be leaving soon to take him on a road trip with him so that we can begin to do everything we have always wanted to do with him.
Please please please keep blogging and contacting us, or doing whatever to keep contact. Come and see us! We are going to need it now and in the future. It has and will help so damn much.
We love you all . . . .